523rd entry ~ We're in this together now....
8:27 pm
I feel like I have some talk of importance to share tonight. Yes, this is quite important.
So Mr. B's dad has been in the hospital because some medications caused some issues. Well he's fine now, back at home....but the whole time Mr. B was telling me this through email, he always kept saying he's sorry to drag me into it. Well this morning I wrote him an email asking him why he told me if he didn't want to bring me into it. Hes been telling me lately how much he cares about me and my health and that he's worried about me and my medications. So I sent him an email telling him what meds I was on to make him happy.
That's totally out of order, but the point is today I asked him in the email if by him saying how much he cares about me is it like his way of saying he loves me. I asked him that..if he loved me. I wasn't pressuring him, I was just asking him. I was kinda nervous at what he was going to say because I honestly didn't know what to expect. I got an email late this afternoon.
He started out the email with
"I can't think of any way right now to start saying what needs to be said,,,"
I didn't notice this until I had re-read the email, but he makes it sound like I was punishing him. doesn't it?
He goes on to tell me why he told me about his father. When he found out it was because of some medications.....
"The first thing I thought of was you and what kind of medicines you could be taking."
I'm going to write him tomorrow and say that's a load of crap that I was the first thing he thought of. He knows what I'm talking about.
He goes on to say...
"I have become attached to you quite a bit, I do love and care about you." but he doesn't call it true love....that will come with time. He says I am the type of person who would like to be around a stable guy....
He says he knows what kind of person I am through listening to me. He says I seem to be a nice person to hang around from what he's heard and from what I've told him. He then says....
"You might just need a man in your life,,, lol. I know a couple of them, if you need some resumes,,, lol."
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
He goes on to say that he has feelings for me and that he does love me. He says that he believed from the beginning we had something, but now he's sure of it and it just needs to develop.
He ends with...."We're in this together now....
So I guess we're official now. LOL I honestly didn't know what to expect from him when I wrote that email this morning. I was kinda nervous to read what he wrote. When the email came and I read it, I was kinda shocked...but I couldn't tell ya if it was a good or bad kind. Now that I've re-read the email several times and have written him a responce on paper, I'm glad that I asked and I'm glad that he responded. I'm happy with his responce. Now what this means for us, I have no idea. but at least I know what he thinks and what he feels. I told him I won't bring this up again. lol Just like the children conversation. lol
Mom and Chris are at the Pirates movie. So it's just dad and I and the dog and rabbit. Goodie. The rabbit has started eating the dog food. GREAT! I've gotta run.
Amanda