527th entry ~ There was a certain "M" word that got brought up....
12:04 pm
I've only been hearing from him once a day now. No more 10 pm emails from him. I somehow knew that wasn't going to keep happening, it was just a one time thing. This morning he emailed me telling me what he did on his day off. Not much! He said he was laying in bed thinking about me and what we could be talking about. Awww...I wonder what we were talking about though! haha
I've been on a roll lately about college. Not a good roll, a bad roll. I am getting so frustrated with Whitewater it's not funny. I finally got into my bill yesterday and I owe $5,100 by September 20th. Well I don't even have a student loan yet so I have no idea how this is getting paid for. So I wrote Mr. B an email complaining about everything and that I wanted to drop out and that my parents are getting pissed at me because of how much this is costing. It's not going too well. A few days ago he brought up the idea of me going to college in Florida. I told him I'd have to become a resident because I'm not paying out of state tuition. I told him the only way I would even think about it is if we were 1) Very serious, 2) if he helped me out not finacially but with all the other stuff and 3) if I had a really good job. I checked out University of West Florida which is just down the road from him, and it doesn't look like a bad school. Then he brought it up in the email today. I don't know. I wouldn't mind moving to Florida but I didn't want to do it any time soon ya know?
It's not like I haven't thought about it before. I haven't told him before he brought it up, but I have thought about the idea. But yeah, it would be super expensive. Maybe after two years at Whitewater I would consider it. I don't know if we'll still be together in two years or if I'll even be in college in two years. I don't know. I'd really like to stick it out for the whole four years though because Whitewater is a top Business school in WI. It would be great to spend time with him other than once a year. To be able to see him and not just talk through email and over the phone. Yes, it would be great. But at the same time, would it be worth it? Florida is more expensive than Wisconsin in every way.
It's funny because in his email he sent today he mentioned marriage. This his significant other could get help for college either from the military or from the state, I don't know which. I believe it's the military though. I was shocked when he brought that word up. He didn't say we would get married or anything like that....he said "I know there's something also with marriage and my 100% tuition, that your significant other can use it as well"...........so maybe in a way he was refering to it but....no! No way. lol
Well I found a Dell that I want, but dad got pissed at me, though he didn't say it, that I'm wanting to order one instead of going to a store and buying one. Sorry pops, but this one comes with EVERYTHING...the software is already installed all you have to do is turn the damn thing on! With other computers you've got to buy the software seperate, plus other computers can't be customized the way I want them to be. So this one will be an on going battle and I don't know what I'm going to do. I've got the money in my savings account....I just need credit card room to buy one. I'm thinking of going out to best buy because chris has a gift card he wants to use, but then I should look at their computers again and tell dad "okay, I looked but I'm not happy!" I wish I didn't live with such a smart ass sometimes. Well I'm in desperate need of getting dressed. I'm still in my pajamas and it's after noon. haha Talk later.
Amanda