541st entry ~ It was perfect.
5:29 pm
Wow, two days this week. What's up?? Well first off, I'm bored out of my mind. I mean I'm seriously bored. I can't wait until I get a shit load of homework. I know I might regret saying that later, but right now I don't care. I've got other things on my mind. And that other thing would just so happen to be Mr. B.
He wrote the most amazing thing yesterday. It was perfect, it was hot, hot, HOT, it was amazing. I can't believe he wrote it, but I'm so happy he did. It was just amazing to read. I've read this email like thirty times by now, it's so great. I don't want to go into details but he wrote what he's been thinking of doing. What he wants to do on the night we spend it together. We'd start out going somewhere I've never been, some place I'd love, go to dinner and then after that it was a surprise. So I'm curious. He said we may end up back at our room and he'd run me a bath so I could relax and get rid of my anxiety and then we'd go from there. It was so sweet....it was just perfect. I can't explain it in any other words...it was perfect. It made me want him home even more. I just can't explain it, how I felt, what I want...it was just perfect. If he does what he said in that email, I will be in heaven that night. I will be the happiest person on the planet and that might end any questions I had about the strenght of our relationship. But not until that time.
I wrote him this morning about my thoughts and feelings and he got back to me just a little bit ago. He didn't say much other than this will be special for me and he can't wait to be with me. Some days I really wonder if he's the one. I was talking to Julie last night and I said I'd like it if Mr. B was my first and last boyfriend. He mentioned in his email that I was the one and that I am worth the wait. I think it's sweet, but then I'm always a little on the questioning side. My biggest problem with this is the distance, and I think he knows this. If not he's going to find out soon. After we have a little fun of course...lol I just don't know. I guess time will tell, but he's very convinced things are going to work out.
My thinking...how do you know things are going to work out when there is no sign of a real commitment here?? I don't see a ring on my fingure, or in the mail, or any time soon. At least I would hope not. So how can he be so sure??
Amanda