553rd entry ~ Well...things are okay, sort of.
7:40 pm
I am so flippin tired it's not funny!! I think it's because I've done nothing today and I've hardly eaten anything, so I've got no energy. The first real thing I've had today was a piece of pizza for dinner tonight. Very healthy! I haven't been in a food mood. Ryan I are sort of talking again, not currently, but things are better.
We pretty much talked all day today. I got up this morning and said good morning to him when he left the room for the shower. I wished him luck with class and he asked about my one class today. I came back and closed the door after class to change my pants and he walked right in his room after that. i wanted to talk to him again but of course he closed his door. Biggest thing about him that annoys me. So I sent him a text message and he actually responded to me!! hahah It was funny for awhile because his phone beeps when he gets a message and I can hear it! lol So it was entertaining that way. Then he left for lunch and didn't talk to me for awhile. I left and went back to Janesville for a bit because I needed to get the hell out of here. I feel the need to do so again. I was texting him while driving in Janesville. I payed a visit to mom first, then went to WalMart and picked some stuff up, then went to Old Navy. Came back to UWW and seen he had taken my parking spot!! RUDE! We were talking on myspace for quite some time and I was impressed actually. He was cleaning his room and talking to me. He came out to leave for class and we had a little coversation, then he hasn't said a word to me since. So I dunno if I fucked something up again or if he's just not in the mood to talk yet again. He has to work 9 to 12 tonight so I know once he leaves I won't talk to him again. I'm not staying up until midnight to talk to him when he might not even talk back! Fuck that shit! So I dunno.
I'm trying so hard it's unbelievable. I'm trying to make things right, and I know it's going to take time, I know that. It just kind of worries me when he doesn't talk to me like this. I keep thinking I've done something wrong again. I know sometimes he does homework and won't respond to people, but when I hear his phone going off right and left after I've text him, I know somethings up. He either didn't get my message or he's ignoring me yet again. I've sent him two messages on myspace which he might not really be on myspace right now even though it says he's online, but he hasn't gotten back to either one. So I don't know what the hells up. I'm getting frustrated though and I need to stop. I need to calm down...finish up on my damn english paper!! hahaha Yeah, that's a story on it's own.
I'm currently liking my stress ball very much! I need to go. Do homework, put pictures up, something!