555th entry ~ Living arrangments are going to change.
12:39 pm
Well well well.....how things change so quickly around here!! Now it's looking like my living arrangments are going to change slightly. I'm going to try and spend more time at home than here so I don't have to see him.
This morning I got up quarter after eight and just sat on the computer for a bit. He got up around 8:30 to take his shower and I said good morning to him and he said nothing. I thought maybe he didn't hear me or whatever. 20 minutes later he comes back from his shower and I was over at my dresser picking out clothes. I looked at him and said "So are you not going to talk to me anymore?" He looked right at me and closed the door without saying a damn thing. I just stood there shocked as hell that he would do this. I had my door slighly opened. After that I slammed it shut. I started crying, I sent mom and email saying I need to get out of here and then I went and washed my face. I left the door slighly adjar just in case my buddy came by that he could come in. Ryan left for class and I never turned around to see him. I don't know if he's trying to do this perposly to me or what. It just kind of pisses me off that he closed the door on me without saying a thing. So now I feel uncomfortable being around here with the door open, so it's closed now. I've talked to Dawn, my RA next door and she said the next time she has a chance to talk to him she's going to try and say something to him. About how I'm feeling about being around here. I told her today I'm planning on changing my living arrangments, not so much moving out all the way, but trying to spend as much time away from here as possible. He's not going to do anything to change the situation he's created, so I'm going to try and do something about it for myself. I think it's terribly sad though that it's come to this. There was no reason for this. None at all.
So I've got some planning to do. Next Thursday I have my meeting with Mickey so we'll talk then what she thinks will be best to do, but I'm going to move out in a way anyway. I don't want to leave Whitewater because I really like it here, but he's not making this easy on me. And I'm sure he feels I'm not making this easy on him when I haven't done anything to create this.
I'm watching The Chronicals of Narnia right now and I'll try and do some homework. Later.
Amanda