569th entry ~ Just an update.
4:56 pm
It's the last day of February, thank God. I think if this were a 31 day month I'd be scared. Hopefully March goes a lot better. I think it will now that I have bought my ticket for spring break. I got it for a great deal. $299.60 and I'm flying through Delta. I leave Thursday, March 22nd at 2:30 from Madison and have like a four hour layover in Atlanta but might see if I can get a sooner flight. There are three flights that go to Fort Walton after I arrive in Atlanta. One is a 38 minute layover, the second is like a 2.5 hour layover and the one I'm on is like a 4 hour layover, so I might be able to get onto the second one to get down there sooner. But if not, I'm scheduled to arrive at 9:44 pm Thursday night. So much for TV night! hahahaha
I decided to fly out Thursday instead of Friday to save some money. It saved a ton of money and I bought that ticket at the perfect time. I should be counting my lucky stars that I got it for that good of a price. I have been watching them for quite a while and I was going to make my decision this week, but I got the good deal on Sunday, so it worked out. The trade off by coming down on Thursday night is I have to spend most of the day on Friday alone. Brian will have to work. I'll probably just sleep. Not a whole lot to do around there. The backyard is just a woods, kind of like the whole area. I think that's because of the base, because areas outside of it are fine.
I told him I want him to plan something special for the 24th. I don't know if he really knows what the 24th means...just from some of his reactions, but I don't say I want everyday to be something special. I made sure to be down there for that day and if he doesn't do anything...wel i'm going to feel like he doesn't care. Yes, that date doesn't mean as much as it could to other couples, but it still means something to both of us. And that's what matters. So we'll see. Even if we just stay at home, I'll be fine with that. Spending time with him is all that I care about.
He's supposed to be on a plane this coming Friday, but we'll see how the weather coroperates. We're supposed to be getting another storm going through, but we're not supposed to get as much snow this time around, mostly rain. But again, we'll see. It still bugs me that he's going to be home for over a week and he's only going to come down and see me for a day. He sees it as two, but he's only going to be here for one night. He said he's got stuff to do, but then at the same time he's telling me everything that he's got to do will be done before he comes and sees me. He's talking about coming down on Wednesday to see me. So why couldn't he stay until the end of the week possibly???? Whatever, I'll get over it once it comes and goes.
We're still talking about me transfering up there to go to school next year. Last night I called him to bitch at him and he told me he might be able to come back the end of May, early June instead of in July. But he said he wasn't sure and didn't want to tell me because if it doesn't happen I'll get upset. Well I don't think it'll happen anyway so why would I care? I still have a hard time believing he'll be home in July like he says he will be. He said he has to be home before August for harvest. Yes it would work out better if he could be home in May, but nobody is saying he will be. Nobody's saying he'll be home in July either. I want this to work out just as bad as he does. I'm surprise actually how bad he does want this to work out. Maybe he's starting to see my point now. That if this doesn't happen nothing is ever going to change between us and we might as well go our seperate ways. it's true. I don't want it to happen and I don't think he wants it to happen either, but if something doesn't change when he comes home it might very well happen. I hate that i can't see him when I want to as it is, but when he'll be living in the same state and still not being able to see him as much...not right and not fair.
But hopefully things will go the way we both want them to go and end of story. I hope it can be that easy anyway....sad thing is nothing is ever that easy in my life. :(
Amanda