575th entry ~ We are divided
7:40 pm
Good evening. We've been having some very fall like weather the past few days. I quite enjoy it. However I hear we are supposed to be back up in the 70s next week. I should be excited except with this apartment, it'll feel like 80 in here. I can't handle 80 anymore. :(
Presently I am in the bedroom with the door closed and Badger game on. So far so good. This is something that seperates the boyfriend and I, and not in a good way. It is football season as I'm sure we are all aware and I like football. I take after my mother in this department, especially with Badger games. The boyfriend however does not like football, or any popular sports for that matter. He's into speedskating, running, and cycling and track and field. Nothing wrong with it, but you don't see those televised all the time. He would never volunterially tune into a football game.
I think because of my love of football and him not so much, it puts a huge divider in our relationship. There is a huge strain in the relationship anyway so what's just a little bit more?
I put another fork into things when I told him I've been talking to other guys. Right now, I am single. Yes my living situation is very weird, but I am not with him right now. I am not looking to jump into another relationship, but I do want to meet new people as friends for now. He is not trusting me however with my choices so he decided to snoop through my phone this week to see who I was talking to. I'm sure he was happy with what he found out, but this pissed me off. I confronted him about it and he said he was jealous of this guy I was talking to. Funny seeing as I've never met this other guy and I do not plan on it. Though if he is going to act this way, maybe I will. Just to piss him off ya know? This will be a long eight months until the lease is up.
My lack of sleep lately I'm sure hasn't been helping. I'm unsure if it's because of certain medications I've been taking are keeping me awake, or if it's because he's snoring? I swallow sleeping pills like they are candy and still no sleep. It's a weird situation.
Well once again I lost the desire to do this again, so I shall end this for now. Later.
Amanda