595th entry ~ My clear skin is finally coming through!
5:16 pm
Hello one and all. I grace my presents for the second time in a week. How shocking!
I do have something rather interesting I’d like to discuss, but I will have to make sure of certain facts before I go and gossip. This is just simply a note to me.
It snowed today. I hate snow. Snow makes me sad. Haha! I haven’t stepped foot outside today so I have no idea how much we really got and how cold the temps are. My weather bug says we are at 28 right now at this hour, but who knows how true that really is. I’m ready for the sunny days of summer!
I am making my first attempt since moving out of the house at making a roast. I bought one a week or so ago and have been looking for receipts online, so today I figured I’d give it a shot. I’m crossing my fingers it turns out well since the darn thing went in half frozen. Ugh.
Something which makes me happy but may make some of you scratch your head is my face. Quite an odd topic, but it is one I have long struggled with to make me happy. It is finally paying off. I have had a long battle with acne which was briefly taken away when I went on birth control. I then lost my insurance and had to give up my happy pill. I have since then tried everything and anything to make my face look better which is very hard to do when you know your acne is hormonal. Within the last month however I have seen remarkable changes to my face which are absolutely amazing if you knew how offal my face looked before. Only select few do however because I would not allow a picture to be taken without heavy amounts of make up.
The make up amount has not changed much, but now it is starting to look less caked on and more natural. I would love to be one of those women who can wear Mineral Makeup and look amazing in it. You don’t have to worry about flaws to cover up and it’s so much better for your skin. I however was not graced with that possibility. Right now though, when I look in the mirror, I start to see a little bit of my old self showing through. As many people are aware if they too have suffered from acne, it can cause devastating problems with self-esteem amongst other issues. Lately however I have been able to go out in public make up free. I still have a lot of redness and scaring that will take months to clear, but the over all feeling now is so much better than even a month ago. Want to know my secret?
It’s not Proactiv. That actually made my skin worse.
I had to think back to a time when my skin was clear and I was not on birth control. I had to think back to the summer of 2005 when I went down to Disney world. My skin then was crystal clear. At that time I was not drinking soda and I was still semi anorexic. Yes, sever weight loss can have an impact on your over all appearance, inside and out. A light bulb went off inside my head though. No soda. I haven’t been much of a soda drinker all of my life, but I would have my fair share. So I decided no more soda. See if this can make any sort of changes. I’m not sure if I can completely give all the credit to that because I have also made a number of other changes recently too. I have become more physically active thanks to my job, I’ve dropped the soda, but I’ve also started using the Proactiv toner once a day. I have also started taking two herbal pills twice a day, though I often forget.
I’m thinking though the biggest and best change was the soda. I have had only a little glass full of soda in over a month time. I honestly do not miss it, though my big weakness was Diet Pepsi. I’m drinking a lot more water, though that changes everyday, and try and drink Green Tea when I can. I’m hoping this will be a permanent fix in my diet and my skin can hold it’s own because I do not see myself getting back on birth control anytime soon.
This was mostly written for me to be able to look back on and see what has gone right and wrong. I know personally what has, but it’s always nice to have it down in writing. So here is to the future; clean, clear and healthy!
Amanda
PS: I just checked my roast and it’s falling apart! Mmmm!